Im tired

Yes...Im too tired..of this tiring routine wherein I am just not able to spare time for myself....Everyday I am cutting a portion of myself for this JOB which gives me nothing but pay cheques...well i do need them....but not at this price when I just can't do what I want to do in life....I like lying on my bed staring at the TV screen..punching the remote control's keypad, surfing through channels--- even if it means wasting time. For me it's my life...it makes me feel happy...but i do not get the time to do that...as i have to report for my JOB..... yeah..i know..one cannot shirk work and has to do a JOB...but not like this....I love to water the plants kept on my roof top.....but I can't...i have a job.....My peers, well wishers, even friends suggest me to leave my city, leave my parents, leave my home, leave my room, leave my comfort for a new JOB in a new city....but why should I....WHY should i leave my family for a JOB?
I am tired...rather sick of this....I am not finding myself grow the way I wanted to...I know you cannot always be what you want to be..but atleast you can try...but this JOB is not letting me to even try that.....
I will leave this JOB....but i cant...as i dont have another JOB in hand....
how stupid life is.....well, i too may be stupid...but tell me from the bottom of your heart...are we not drifting away from what we actually are....has this JOB not made our lives complex....?